Week in Review

It's been a good week. We cast the Parody, which was heartbreaking and exciting at the same time. Heartbreaking because some people I really liked didn't make the cut, but exciting because the people who are in the show all seem to be really cool. Also heartbreaking because it means the writing process is basically over (apart from our last scene). I keep feeling the need/desire to re-write things.

Following casting, we had our read-through, and everyone laughed at the right parts (so I guess re-writing isn't as necessary as I want to think it is). No one seemed to get offended (Lexi, the official Parody cast conscience, actually came up after and assured me she thought everything was cool), EXCEPT for one dude, who quit the show. But, he's a religious dude, so I'm just going to assume that means it's funny.

Hooray!

Apart from that, I managed to convince myself that I was going to die alone and lonely no fewer than 3 times in the last 36 hours. Why, you ask, would I do this to myself? Because like 4 or 5 people I know went out of town yesterday and today, and I started to feel like a loser. Not because I had no one else to hang out with, but because I would have to make an effort to hang out with new people. This is something I need to change about myself. I mean, my friends are great, but I need to get over not wanting to talk to new people. It's really just a confidence thing. I never feel like I can't talk to someone - I'm not afraid of approaching people. I'm afraid of engaging in conversation. I always feel the need to steer the convo, and when I don't know the person very well, I don't know where to steer it to. Then I start judging myself for being a lousy conversationalist, and start thinking, dude, if someone else said to me what I just said to this guy, I would think I was a loser. Which then makes me paranoid on top of uninteresting.

In any case, I'm excited for my first string friends to get back.